I’m pretty dumb sometimes. But I’m human, so, that’s a given. Not a second goes by where a human being doesn’t make a mistake. But that’s probably what’s made us the most advanced-thinking species on the planet.

I lied about something stupid (the fact that I lied at all is stupid, but that’s another story) and it really hurt some people who very important to me. While questioning myself why I did that, I found out a few facts. Like… how I keep desperately trying to protect peoples image of me. Trying to keep my reputation “clean” in some peoples eyes. And that causes me to either avoid talking to them, or, in this case, lie about something dumb.

Well, that’s probably the most stupid thing I can do. Everyone will have a different opinion of me, so trying to carve everyone’s opinion of me into something perfect is just downright stupid and eventually those very people I’ve been trying to like me will be hurt. And, well, that happened. So it seems instead of listening to the advice of hundreds of people in books, I’m living in that painful hard way where I learn from experience. So I can tell people later on “Yeah, don’t do that, I know from experience that it’s a dumb thing to do.”

Here’s a couple of facts for you: I’m a delusional, niave, ridiculously insecure, foolish, terribly shy, bitchy, idiotic, emotional human girl who makes mistakes.

I’m gonna stop trying to hide all that from the world now.